Not bullshitting you or making a joke... In 2003, if you would have asked me if I was abducted by an alien life form, I would have had difficulty giving you a simple no.
I would have described how these fiendish impish forms from beyond the cosmos came upon me in my room- my arms unable to make for my gun (kept safely next to my bed); my voice unable to call out. I could second by second tell you of their cold grey fingers tracing up my side; Their shrill “voices” speaking to me in my head, asking me to relax and just go with it.
I remembered all of this (goose bumps tracing my skin even now as I type this), clear as I remembered the birth of my children.
But it couldn’t be real- shouldn’t be.
Yet to me, it was.
Real enough that for years later I developed a severe insomnia.
It wasn't until 2005 when a girl I had been seeing, tired of my insisting on setting up various traps laying wait to snare whatever creature was coming to molest me in my all to infrequent slumber suggested to me that perhaps my nightmare experiences where less my being abducted by aliens and more a combination of sleep paralysis combined with flashbacks from my days of eating acid. Didn’t change the seemingly all too often late night awakenings by these horrific visions, but it helped keep me from falling too much deeper into the abyss of paranoia.
But even my years of reckless hallucinogen abuse, it turns out, might not have been the answer to my mysterious journeys into the darkness of night…
A UCLA study has come to a stunning conclusion regarding alien abduction phenomena… One bound to turn the Alien Abduction world on its ear.
It turns out that the “Alien Abduction Phenomenon” might have more to do with magic human powers than it does with perverse alien science projects.
A recent study from the OOBE (Out Of Body Experience) Research Group from UCLA observed 20 volunteers on October 7th, 2011.
These volunteers were instructed to perform a specific procedure upon overnight and early-morning awakenings over the next few days. More than half of the volunteers experienced at least one full or partial out-of-body experience as a result, with 7 of them reportedly making visual contact with UFOs or extraterrestrials. Meanwhile, the sensations they described were identical to those of accounts by “alien abduction survivors”.
But here’s the thing…They didn’t go anywhere…
The subjects of the experiment went through what the researchers refer to as an “Outer body Experience”, the sensation of having left the body, and not a real exit of some essence from the physical body - although this is just the impression often had by test subjects.
In this case, these people believed they were being tortured by aliens, something millions of people claim has happened to them each and every year (much like I did).
But they didn’t, according to the science…
Only believed they did…
It goes without saying the UFO faithful will be quick to make a defense…
They will begin speaking to you about how they already make an allotment for things such as sleep paralysis and brains just damaged beyond repair by years of eating biker tub acid.
And how the abduction phenomenon has more to it than just the feeling that an alien life form had its way with you…
And as someone who has experienced this strange sort of sensations, I would be inclined to believe them.
Whatever happened to me all those years ago was happening to me only then. It didn’t happen to me prior to those years, nor has it happened since (something I tell myself has to matter because it is still the same scared and frazzled brain having these subconscious recollections).
From time to time the events of those nights cross my mind (to this day I still wake up screaming from the nightmares triggered in my brain), rendering me sleepless for days following.
But behind that very human fear there is this feeling that it has to be bullshit…
It needs to be bullshit.
I get triggered by alien abduction movies…
I go to sleep listening to Coast to Coast AM with George Noory…
And I eat reams of blotter paper.
In short, there is no reason to believe that I am suffering from anything more than breaks between my conscious and subconscious mind, be it through rampant drug abuse or from subconscious science experiments.
Any other explanation would be too world smashing.
And yet, while I know all of this and it makes all the sense in the world to just right this off as some out of body experience brought about at that time due to some long forgotten about stress at that time, I really cannot shake the unnerving terror of those moments.
It’s that terror that keeps me coming back to abduction.
The pure, searing terror.